When Your Time Is Not Your Own
*I’m reposting this from September 1, 2015 because it remains relevant*
Have you ever felt like every aspect of your Life revolves around everyone else’s schedule?
As parents, it feels like everything about our lives “belong” to someone else; appointments, meal times, waking and sleeping times, “me” time, all depend on the people we love and care for the most.
But sometimes, this can make it hard to both love and care for them. When we are not in tip-top shape, in other words, when we haven’t had “Me” time to care for our Selves and our own needs, then it’s hard to be present and parent with lovingkindness.
In the past 6+ months I have been struggling with finding time to exercise. A good jog can cure any mental and physical ailment for me, and it’s the most powerful outlet I have.
However, with two kids under age 3 and a husband who works all day (from home) and is in school/studying all night, carving out a meaningful half hour for my run has proven nearly impossible.
In another attempt to work around my husband, K.man’s, schedule, I kindly asked him to help me find a schedule that works for both of us, since every attempt I’ve made at exercising in the past several months hasn’t worked.
I’ve tried going at 6am before the Sun rises; lo and behold, every single time my alarm was set for 6am one or both of my girls was up before or with me and ready to start the day.
I’ve tried exercising after I finish bath and bed time. But, let’s keep it real, who wants to get sweaty at 10-1030pm after a 15+ hour day on your feet?
I’ve tried some living room workouts while my littlest one, Ads, naps. Well, she’s decided at her mature age of 7 months that she’d rather not nap. Oh, and when she does nap, it’ll be a quick snooze to restore just enough energy to push through the afternoon.
What’s a tired, desperate, frazzled girl to do??
In my final attempt to keep the family balanced while taking care of myself, I summoned K.man to work out a schedule with me when he can watch the girls for just an hour while I blow some steam and take a cleansing shower in peace.
His response to me was to, “pick a time to go and just stick with it.” :-/
Taking that approach obviously hasn’t been working for me or we wouldn’t be having this conversation, dear husband of mine.
Since then, my new Mantra has become: This is a Season!
This time will pass into a new Season; the girls will grow, we will have more children who will inevitably ruin my body and steal my sleep.
But rather than cringing inside while trying to justify my frustration, I’m trying harder each and every day to really believe it – this is a Season of our Lives and I must enjoy every minute of it!
It’s true, our girls will grow, probably much faster than we’d like. We will have more children, a huge blessing when so many cannot conceive without difficulty.
Sleep will be stolen from me night after wakeful night. But who want’s to sleep when there’s so much beauty surrounding me? I’d hate to miss another minute of it 🙂
Do you find yourself struggling with balancing all of your parenting responsibilities while also trying to take care of yourself?
What are some things you wish you had more time to do?